2 hari sebelom natal

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gw mau update blog gw , dari sekian tahun ga pernah gw tulis hahahha

sekarang 2 hari menjelang natal

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taon ini wilayah gw jadi bagian tugas natal n paskah. persiapan cukup ribet. gw jadi koordinator buat perarakan. lumayan bikin sibuk n seru. dar cari orang sampe siapin baju. gw belom sepet beli perlengkapan buat natal. mungkin besok baru gw beli. btw yg ikut perarakan tuh

Priska = Maria

Calvin = Yusuf

Alden, Jeje, Ko jul = Gembala

Bernard, Eric, Kenny = Raja

Awalnya si gw ga jadi koor nya cuma di minta bantuin cari orang. eh lama" gw jadi koornya beneran hahahah, gara" ko jul siuk dan gw lbh sering ngomong ke tante lina hahahaha. semoga perarakan tgl 24 berjalan dengan lancar karena kita cuma lat 1 kali, dengan main" lol

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• (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ～『✧~*ABOUT YOU*~✧』
• 1. Are you more feminine or masculine?
• - masculine
• 2. Are you tall or short?
• - tall
• 3. What’s your favorite color?
• - white, black,and bright colour
• 4. What do you love about yourself?
• - I don't know
• 5. What’s your greatest flaw?
• - less confident
• 6. Do you see yourself differently than other people describe you?
• - yes
• 7. What are you really, really good at?
• - daydreaming
• 8. What’s something you’re bad at, but love?
• - study, confident, people
• 9. What’s something people have tried to force you to do?
• - don't give up / don't lost my hope
• 10. How do you spend your free time?
• - internet
• 11. Describe the way you dress in one sentence.
• - messy
• 12. Have you ever gotten your nails professionally painted?
• - no
• 13. What is the most insulting thing anyone has said to you?
• - " she is nothing "
• 14. Favorite game?
• - harvestmoon, kingdomheart
• 15. What color is your hair?
• - black
• (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ～『✧~*PHILOSOPHY*~✧』
• 16. Do you believe in god?
• - yes
• 17. Is men’s rights a thing?
• - yes , sometimes
• 18. Does love really exist?
• - yes
• 19. Can science explain everything, eventually?
• - not all
• 20. Are we raised into what we love, or do we come to love it based on how we were raised?
• - i don't understand
• 21. How do you feel about the school system?
• - sucks
• 22. Do you believe in fate/destiny?
• - sometimes
• 23. What is art?
• - something with lot of meaning
• 24. Do we define ourselves, or does our past?
• - both true
• 25. What happens after we die?
• - i don't know, I haven't been there
• 26. Do humans matter--tiny specs on a floating piece of rock in a solar 27. system in a galaxy in an infinite universe?
• - . . . 
• 28. Is there good in everyone?
• - yes
• 29. Does apathy really exist?
• - yes
• 29. Is human life only valuable because our society makes it?
• - no
• 30. How do you feel about society, the vague “they” blamed for everything?
• - society so good, and make you happy. but it can be scary too
• (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ～『✧~*LOVEY-DOVEY PREFERENCE STUFF*~✧』
• 31. What gender do you prefer?
• - pop?
• 32. What’s the first thing you notice about someone?
• - there voice
• 33. Could you love someone you found ugly?
• - idk
• 34. Favorite hair color?
• -, black, dark brown
• 35. Favorite eye color?
• - brown, gray
• 36. Ideal height?
• - 170+
• 37. Describe, personality-wise, what your ideal boy/girlfriend would be like?
• - funny, really understand me, kind, love me for who am I , kid like
• 38. Describe, appearance-wise, what your ideal boy/girlfriend would be like?
• - taller than me, not too skinny or fat
• 39. What do you look for--brains or looks?
• - looks than brain
• 40. Could you fall in love online?
• - no
• 41. How much of an age cap can you handle?
• - 1 or 2 year older
• 42. How would you introduce yourself on a blind date?
• - never try this
• 43. Could you forgive a cheater?
• - no
• 44. Is lying about something serious as bad as cheating?
• - depends how bad it is
• 45. Right now, you could call the person you like/love (if you aren’t dating/engaged/married already), or show up at their front door, and just confess or kiss them or whatever. What’s stopping you?
• - shy, no confidence 

new beautiful

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? * Tania and Stella 2. Are you outgoing or shy? * first Shy and than outgoing? 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? * My idol, someone out there who will be the my last 4. Are you easy to get along with? * depends  5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? * I never drunk 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? * people who accept me, my negative and positive side  7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? * Idk 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? *Lee sung Yeol 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? *SO uncomfortable 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? * with calvin, lala, ci dita 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? * I like to say random things but all that random things only tell them that I'm sad 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? * Empty by winner   Heaven by ailee   New Beautiful by Epik High   If I were you by 2ne1   Diamond by Infinite 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? * no 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? * yes 15. What good thing happened this summer? * Nothing happen, my life so suck 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? * I kiss no one 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? * idk 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? *yes 19. Do you like bubble baths? *yes 20. Do you like your neighbors? *yes 21. What are you bad habits? *I bite my finger nail when I'm stress or concentrate with something, im so lazy 22. Where would you like to travel? * South Korea, Vancouver, Paris, Landon, Japan 23. Do you have trust issues? * yes 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? * go home from school and fangirling 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? * my cheek and nose  26. What do you do when you wake up? * open my eyes lol 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? *lighter 28. Who are you most comfortable around? *my family 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? *yes 30. Do you ever want to get married? *yes 31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? *yes 32. I dont like this Question so I delete it 33. Spell your name with your chin. *how can? 34. Do you play sports? What sports? *when Im younger 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? *tv 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? * Its happen to me , like everytime 37. What do you say during awkward silences? * what will you do after this 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? * he must be kind, tall, humoris , or I can say like Lee Sung Yeol, or someone from Infinite, or I can say I want Him to be mine. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? *store that near my house 40. What do you want to do after high school? * make my dream come true but Now i still don't have courage to make it come true 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? * for some reason 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? * Im pissed off, someting annoyed me, Im sleepy, I just wont to talk, stress  43. Do you smile at strangers? * sometimes 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? *bottom of the ocean 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? *I need to pee 46. What are you paranoid about? * I cant explain it 47. Have you ever been high? *no 48. Have you ever been drunk? *no 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? *yes 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? *red 51. Ever wished you were someone else? *yes, even I ever wish I being bottle lol 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? *courage 53. Favourite makeup brand? *I dont have particular band 54. Favourite store? * same 55. Favourite blog? * not particular 56. Favourite colour? * depending on the mood  57. Favourite food? *pudding, banana  58. Last thing you ate? * my medicine  59. First thing you ate this morning? *banana 60. Ever won a competition? For what? *its not my competition but I help them and won 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? * dot remember 62. Been arrested? For what? * no 63. Ever been in love? * yes  64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? * soon 65. Are you hungry right now? *no 66. Do you like your online friends more than your real friends? * sometimes 67. Facebook or Twitter? * twitter 68. Twitter or Tumblr? * twitter 69. Are you watching tv right now? *no 70. Names of your bestfriends? *not sure  71. Craving something? What? * trip 72. What colour are your towels? *blue 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? *3 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? *no 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? *idk 75. Favourite animal? *wolf, dog, cat, alcapa(doll only) 76. What colour is your underwear? * is this necessary  77. Chocolate or Vanilla? *chocolate 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? *chocolate 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? *green 80. What colour pants? *orange 81. Favourite tv show? * alot 82. Favourite movie? * I not really watch movie 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? * I dont watch both 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? * same 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? * idk 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? * nemo dad 87. First person you talked to today? *mom 88. Last person you talked to today? *dad 89. Name a person you hate? * 90. Name a person you love? * My family, my friends, Infinite 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? * so many 92. In a fight with someone? * no 93. How many sweatpants do you have? * non 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? *one 95. Last movie you watched? *Frozen 96. Favourite actress? *for now Krystal jung 97. Favourite actor? * Seo In guk 98. Do you tan a lot? * not alot 99. Have any pets? *no 100. How are you feeling? *random and sad 101. Do you type fast? * not really 102. Do you regret anything from your past? * yes 103. Can you spell well? *no 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? * sometimes 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? *yes 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? *yes 107. Have you ever been on a horse? *yes 108. What should you be doing? * sleep and study 109. Is something irritating you right now? * yes 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? * yes 111. Do you have trust issues? * yes 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? * no one 113. What was your childhood nickname? * Buncis 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? *yes 115. Do you play the Wii? *no 116. Are you listening to music right now? * yes 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? * yes 118. Do you like Chinese food? * yes 119. Favourite book? * comic 120. Are you afraid of the dark? * no 121. Are you mean? * sometimes 122. Is cheating ever okay? * in test , yes 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? * no 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? * sometimes 125. Do you believe in true love? * yes 126. Are you currently bored? * yes 127. What makes you happy? * INFINITE 128. Would you change your name? * no 129. What your zodiac sign? * sagitarius 130. Do you like subway? * yes n no 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? * just be my self 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? * why this question again? 133. Favourite lyrics right now? * epik high - new beautiful lyric 134. Can you count to one million? *yes 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? *im ok 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? *close 137. How tall are you? * 170+ 138. Curly or Straight hair? * straight 139. Brunette or Blonde? *Brunette 140. Summer or Winter? *winter 141. Night or Day? *night 142. Favourite month? *decemer 143. Are you a vegetarian? *no 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? *milk 145. Tea or Coffee? * tea 146. Was today a good day? * not really 147. Mars or Snickers? * I hate both 148. What’s your favourite quote? *“A dream doesn’t become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work.” - Lee Sungyeol 149. Do you believe in ghosts? * yes 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page * the book near me dont have page 42

“

These lips, I saved them for you
long before knowing who you were.

This skin, I kept it pure 
for someday, I knew, I would be yours.

This heart, I locked it away,
safe and untouched, ready to be your home.

”

—	365 Lines for him, by M. L. L. (gasaii)

Personal : Random

Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed?
closed because I sleep in dark light really disturb me when I sleep and I need privet when I sleep lol
Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
yes almost everyone do that hahaha
Where is your next vacation?
I don’t know
Who do you think reads these?
nobody
Do you have a calendar in your room?
yes
What’s your plan for the day?
doing nothing, thinking how suck my life
Are you reading any books right now?
no, but I plan to buy a new one
Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing?
everytime lol
Do you chew your pens and pencils?
now? no, but I used to when I was younger
What is your “Song of the Week”?
Thankful breath by Tablo, and Something by Girl's day
Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
yes I think
Do you still watch cartoons?
yes
What do you drink with dinner?
water
What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in?
nothing
What is your favorite food/cuisine?
PORK ! ! ! ! LOL
What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Hreatsrting, Koizora, Kimi ni todoke, all korean and japan movie hahahaha
When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
don't remember
Can you change the oil on a car?
no
Best thing to eat for breakfast?
kimbab ^^
What is your usual bedtime?
not sure
Are you lazy?
really really really really really really really really lazy !
Afraid of heights?
for some reason
Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
singer, dancer, happy people
Hot tea or cold tea?
both
Tea or coffee?
tea
Can you swim well?
I think
Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose?
yes
Who do you want to see right now?
a lot of people ( especially my future boyfriend)
Do you like your family members?
yes

I miss my long hair

I really miss my long hair now

please hair grow faster

I really look weird now with my new hairstyle

so flat and boring -.-

yoohoo

yoohooo
HOLIDAY ! !
its been while I'm not write new entries in this blog hahahah. collage make me so busy and tiring :( and now I have really long holiday hahahaha. I don't know what I will do in my holiday since I'm student and my collage is holiday. I want something new in my life. something that not make me laying on my bed all day long, sit in front of laptop, and nothing to do. that's so boring and make my back sick, and maybe if I do it till end of my holiday I will get back pain.

God please help me, give me some answer for my situation now. I want something new that make me get out from my bad routine, not spend money, but fun. what kind it be hmmmmmm...........

HELLO 2014 ! BYE 2013 !

ga di sangka sekarang udah 2014. setelah melewati 2013 yang penuh dengan berbagai macam hal" yang ga bisa di ungkapkan dengan kata". semoga di taun baru ini gw bisa melakukan sesuatu hal yang baru, ga ada lagi rutinitas tidur, makan, main, karen itu mebosankan sekali dan merusak tulangpunggung gw :( . semoga cita" tercapai di taon ini, makin banyak temen, banyak rejeki, banyak kegiataan, kuliah sukses, bisa mengalahkan males, dan keluarga gw sehat selalu dan damai sentosa hahahaha.